I think weight has a big impact on quality of life. And if somebody says it doesn’t, I think they’re just trying to hide it.
There’s a sense of denial. You can look in the mirror and not see yourself as fat as you really are or as obese as you really are.
Somebody’s weight does affect their quality of life and the only reason why I say that is because I’ve lived it.
Sometimes I feel very confident about myself but there’s other times when I realize, wow I, I look bad.
When I was at my heaviest, I had no self-esteem. I had, I didn’t think I was pretty. I thought I was ugly. I didn’t want to be in a picture.
I look in the mirror; would-I-go-out-with-me type of thing. And so I constantly have that.
My, my self-image was greatly affected.
My self-image is, I guess has never been a real big problem for me. I’m a very positive person. I was a very positive fat person.
I would say I portrayed the same Debbie. I tried to but I don’t, I don’t think I was the same Debbie. You know, now that I’m thinking about it.
I’m a very outgoing person and I lost me. I was not that person anymore.
Just not doing anything. Basically, just watching TV and the computer all the time. That was my life.
I kind of wanted to just hide. I didn’t go to the beach and if I did, I was fully clothed.
Yeah, I avoided going out. Always wore the big, heavy clothes.
I hate having to shop for clothes.
I didn’t want to eat in public.
I did not go out and do exercise as much because I didn’t want people to judge me. I guess that’s a big factor in it as well.
Sometimes when you’re wearing shorts and you notice how big your calves are or, you know, or just how big you are in general compared to the, the people around you, it becomes somewhat self-conscious.
My daughter actually at one point said to me, she’s like “Mommy, why are you the only big person in our family?” as far as my husband and my kids. And that really, you know, it hit homes when your child says that to you.
My weight actually has affected my ability as a, as a father to keep up with my children.
My eight-year-old wanted to go run and play and mom didn’t feel like going to run and play.
You would get out of breath easy being overweight. You just physically you just were tired and didn’t want to do certain things.
And then some of the stuff you wanted to do, I just wasn’t physically able to do. I mean, bending over and playing kickball and that sort of thing. I mean, it wasn’t comfortable to do.
My weight never stopped me in the past but it made me more cautious.
I am the type of person that even though I felt self-conscious about it, I still did it.
It just wasn’t a good state so getting out of that was probably some of the hardest things I had to do.
I don’t need this holding me back. I gotta do this. I wanna enjoy life. So that’s where I’m at now.